Patience

"How poor are they that have not patience! What wound did ever heal but by degrees?
-William Shakespeare

Apparently I am a poor person because I do not have patience. I have never had patience. I try. I actually try very hard sometimes. Genetics is my scapegoat. My father is not a patient person. When we went somewhere he would just walk. If you did not keep up you got left behind. He had no patience for messing around. He will admit he has no patience.

Through every test I have had it is always waiting. For a person who lacks patience this is agony. Waiting to have the next test, waiting in the lobby to see the doctor, waiting to have blood drawn, waiting for results, waiting for answers. All this waiting, waiting, waiting makes me want to scream!

"I'm extraordinarily patient provided I get my own way in the end."
-Margaret Thatcher

And the way I want my own way is to have everything now. I want results now. I want my stomach fixed now. I want to get on with the rest of my life healthy right now. Now, now, now.

I try yoga to relax me, I try breathing techniques to calm me. I try to keep busy to keep my mind off things. None of this helps my patience.

“Patience is a remedy for every sorrow.”
-Publius Syrus - Latin Moralist

Will someone please teach me the key to patience to remedy my sorrows? I am waiting but not very patiently. My waiting consists of tapping my foot or pacing the room. I know my lesson and have done the homework but I am too stubborn to learn it.